so I made it almost through this 2nd month of 2008, being on my own again for 4 moths with Kepa deployed I am beat - tired - exhausted... but if that weren't enough last Wednesday Feb 20 I was getting ready to head out to work opened the garage door, took 1 step and before I could even realize that the driveway was completely frozen I had already slipped and hit the back of my head on the pavement. I distinctly remember the nasty sound when my head hit the ground. In the moment after the fall I was more mad than hurt - that must be the adrenaline and shock kicking in. I was really lucky not to break any limbs and also I didn't have a gushing wound on my head - after a ride to the emergency room in the ambulance (Phoenix got to ride with me) and a couple of shots to reduce the swelling and help with the pain, (YES the pain did set in after a short while when the adrenaline wore down.) I was discharged from the hospital after the Doc was convinced I did not have a concussion. I then spent the rest of the afternoon with an icepack on my head and neck and lots of pain meds.

This freak accident reminded me how precious our lives are and how quickly they can be taken away from us - in an instant - GONE.
Phoenix got really scared during this whole ordeal and also told me he doesn't want me to be hurt or die like EVER!!..

make the most of every day because you just never know

... not such a Happy beginning for me, but hey we're just getting started right?!

The backstory being too long to be told here... to sum it up Family drama - betrayal - I am MAD as hell and have the daunting task on hand to explain to my 6 year old son that his 'tati' (my sister) is a racist and a hippocrit . She was not supposed to have any contact to Phoenix following a falling out we had last year, you must just know that she hates Americans(because they are all related to BUSH right?!)  - well I married one 7 years ago and our Son is just as American as his Daddy is, so I told her to stay away from my child. My parents are visiting this week and were watching Phoenix on Wednesday (the 2nd day of this brand new year) and allowed my sister to come next to my son and give him a present too.  When I picked him up and discovered what happened I felt betrayed and rage boiling up in me. I did not make a scene in front of my child but I cried all the way home in the car. Why are people so stupid?!?!?!  What the heck was the point of this ?

Phoenix says I hate Christmas just like the Grinch - and I correct him saying that 'Mommy doesn't hate Christmas, I just don't like it....'

So yet another year with Hubby deployed during the holidays, our Tree has been up since before Thanksgiving!!!  I have pretty much been overexposed to the x-mas decorations....  I am so ready to take that thing down and stash away the ornaments..seriously!!

It was a very calm couple of days - Phoenix misses Daddy an awful lot but nothing a pile of toys under the tree on x-mas morning wouldn't cure for the day. No dinners - no family just the left behind Kahihikolo tribe spending time together eating cookies drinking hot cocoa and watching holiday favorites like 'Nightmare before Christmas' and of course the 'Grinch' .

And on the 26. in the morning we get SNOW!!!! did I mention I hate Winter and subsequently the SNOW !!!!

Happy Holidays

Lydia